Blame game time...

"Would you tell me how to get, how to get to Sesame Street?"

Well hello there, kids. Welcome to Sesame Street. The letter of the day is "A." And do you know what words we can make with the letter A? Yes, that's right kiddies! Adoption! And...Abortion! And make sure to tune in tommorrow, when we talk about the letter "B." As in Baby. And Breakdown.

Very good, everyone! Now let's move on to the number of the day. Can you guess what it is? Nope, it's not 5. We're way past five! Today's number is "forever." What's that? Forever's not a number? Hmmm. You know what, kids? I think you're right.

They don't teach us about forever when we're young. I feel cheated.

Big Bird didn't have a catchy tune about it, Bert and Ernie didn't get into a fight about it in order to teach us a lesson. As a result, I have no concept of 'forever.' And without that, how can I possibly make this monumental decision the right way?

The consequences will last forever. The thoughts will stay with me forever.

And I don't know how long that is... I have nothing to relate it to, nothing to understand the pure and simple weight of it. I can't take anything I've done, anything I've learned or tried and turn it into forever. And I feel like if I don't, whatever I've decided is wrong.

So thanks, Bert and Ernie. I'm blaming you for this one. And Big Bird, don't think you're getting out of this.

Oh, right. Happy New Year.